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Wow indeed. There was a time when we were at Snogurt today That I looked at you and truly, I think you're pretty. Your baju kurung, your fair skin, and clear skin. Your hair. aku dah bagi tahu banyak kali tapi kau sibuk pasal nak potong rambut kau tu. Then I suddenly thought (as we're gossiping about Haley getting married in Terengganu and everything), if I were to marry you, (lol), I'd be happy. I mean, you're okay. It's a random thought. and when I'm at it, I just smiled and look down as I wish if only you can hear my thoughts and understand it understand how can I think that way I mean, just how fine you are.

You draw me out,  with sweetness,  from my shell,  so you can kill me clean off.

5.42 am and you texted me saying you just had a really bad dream and I think that is important to be the person you think of when you got up from a bad dream at 6 am like, you rely on me. like, you'd hope for me to make you feel better and not scared anymore and I think that's the most important thing Like, I know where I stand.

:... :Ya :Aku takut. :Takut apa? :Aku takut.. aku takut aku buat salah.

and tonight i thought i hope i miraculously able to forget you

Can I just say one thing? I miss you.

feeling out of this world Semua benda macam tengah kemuncak Semua benda sama ada hitam atau putih atau maksud aku, jelas. senang. Senang aku buat pilihan. Aku kata je apa aku nak. Apa-apa pun jadi, pada akhirnya aku menang. Walaupun sebenarnya tak. Aku tengah jatuh. dan sebenarnya semuanya kelabu. Tapi sebab kau ada dengan aku Aku nampak sebaliknya. Kau ada, Aku rasa okay.

Baby  ya make me be whistling love songs

just saying  people are unbelievable Aku tak tahu kenapa orang behave the way they do, sometimes. People are weird and unbelievable. just saying

Tidur senja memang buat kau jadi gila Bila kau bangun and it's 9pm, kau rasa semua benda membebankan  dan kau tak cukup masa nak handle semua Selain rasa badan aku panas, aku juga benci dengan ''kemampuan'' aku untuk mimpi excessively. Aku rasa aku buang masa dalam tidur sebab semuanya akan spent jadi mimpi yang kemudian resulting in making me confused yang mana satu ''scene'' I had in dream and mana satu daripada kehidupan aku. They get all mixed up. Buat aku bertambah blur bila bangun. Sometimes aku rasa unfortunate. Aku juga rasa aku macam satu manusia yang tak tidur or at least, tak pernah betul-betul  tidur.

it's about nights like this hey, life is about nights like this. nights worth skipping sleep for it's about living in those moment  moment yang kau rasa nafas kau terbang daripada jasad dan kau rasa tak mahu matahari muncul kau nak malam sebegini go on and on sampai kau ready untuk jumpa siang iaitu, macam tak akan. It's this movie. I fell in love with it. It's called If I Stay. Then it's him. We texted and it felt like we just poured our hearts into our conversation as if we see eye to eye as if he's right in front of me I feel like I'm taken to another place. Tonight. nothing really matters anymore-it felt it's just me and that movie and him and the texts and my sweater and pillow It's the whole conversation for 40 minutes, solid, I love every second of it. the silence. all of it. and the wind. it's so cold sampai buat aku rasa macam aku tengah dalam movie  ecey i love your voice sungguh  bermakna untuk dengar kau ca...