yup

how I imagined things will be somehow  it became:

me partying tapi dalam hati nangis

kau tau apa antara benda yang paling best ? Bersin . that nak-terkeluar-anak-tekak type of .

You've tried. That's the important part. Even if you lose , for me you're still the strongest , the fastest, everything. Don't be sad. it's heartbreaking to see. it breaks my heart. I wish I can bring the sadness away. I really wish I can lighten that feeling you're in now :( I wish you know this too. crush.

:D

“People say I love you all the time – when they say, ‘take an umbrella, it’s raining,’ or ‘hurry back,’ or even ‘watch out, you’ll break your neck.’ There are hundreds of ways of wording it – you just have to listen for it, my dear.” — John Patrick, The Curious Savage

Aku nak tutup lampu . Blogging dan tumblring in the dark while listening to this one new song I got from syira shihori called Teru No Uta / Aoi Teshima , mungkin sangat mengasyikkan. Aku dah terlalu lama melayang-layang tak tahu nak pergi mana. Aku mungkin cuma , cari diri aku yang tak jumpa-jumpa. tu je. Tapi apa lah lagi yang kau perlukan , kalau kau ada yang kau sayang di sebelah kau. Mungkin itulah apa yang buat orang yang memiliki jiwa yang bebas itu , memiliki jiwa yang bebas. Aku juga mungkin terlalu sukakan satu orang yang tak ada jawapan untuk satu pun soalan aku , kalau aku ada peluang untuk bertanya. Aku nak tutup lampu - blogging in the dark tapi semalam aku teringatkan satu mimpi aku yang tak berapa nak bagus . Semalam , aku end up tidur buka lampu. hey . aku jarang cerita macam ni. Aku teringat juga yang lepas aku bangun daripada mimpi tu . Aku searched for you. I mean. Texted you. No big deal. dia cuma satu perasaan yang .. pelik. It's funny . ver...

Perbendaharaan kata bahasa melayu aku makin menurun. Aku 'mampu' mengeluarkan kata-kata yang tak wujud , yang sampai ada dua imbuhan , yang buat syira gelak pecah perut. Bagus sebab dapat buat orang gelak , tapi personally jauh dalam hati , risau. Apa nak jadi .

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Still .. Sukanya saya.. kat awak.

-syira shihori ,  midnightstrangers  -

"Mimpi-mimpi yang tak kembali,  Aku janji , janji takkan pergi " Hujan / Kotak Hati

sexy can i

alive awan anis anne analog ape alpha

weh dah Oct. Aura.

Hey i'm up early ! :D

I feel like deleting the all 500+ items. I feel like becoming a new me-with fucking new beliefs. I am ! I really am. OMG tak sabaq nya. nak buang semua. Tukar. bye

it's all about living life :)

bodoh gila i'm unbelievable

kau tau tak aku mmg ...... ya allah aku sendiri tak percaya

serius gila bapak doeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee gila bapak aku tak leh tahan

KELAKAR GILAAAAAA AAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

DAMNITTTTTTTTT I'M STILL FUCKING LAUGHING OMG !!!!!!!!

*doing things I CAN'T STAND BUT TO LAUGH AT MY FUCKING SELF BAHAHAHAHHA 'CAUSE I'M COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS AND NOT UNDERSTANDABLY HILLARIOUS

I might get all upset because of this but whenever i'm happy due to it can't stop smiling i'Il smile the brightest all so vigorous all up and macam firework kebabom and i want that more and moaaaaaar

eceh

i'm now having myself believing in a hard possibility that someday we will be that 2 best friends on Phase 4.

i haven't given up yet

haha that is brain ? and that is butt ?  ekeke. t

YA NEED TO GET THAT MOOD OF FUCKING AROUND, ON.

what i think alwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkksssssssssssssssssssppppppppppppppaoepdjeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqdxnmcmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqdxnmmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbeeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqdxnmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbeeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqxnmcmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbeeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbdjksaldjieuwoeiuoiuoiuzcmnzm,cnam,cnakdadaaeqwe98uaoiudaoiasuoqu09348230174189yr89udihduiahdoquuwswaijs apa aku tulis  jom tidur :)

no aku memang tak sama macam kau tak sampai pun level sesiapa. aku ada kat level sendiri ada kat tempat sendiri bahasa aku tak ramai faham orang yang aku suka - stiffer dari batu and kita semua ada disease dalam kepala otak music memang bawak kita pergi. tapi sat ja. and aku sick of .. some people. depa pun sama.

pluviophile

get lost tonight. in the dark. jom. jom. now. biar la if he didn't reply for tonight. sebab kita ada sebab untuk rasa belong to the night sebab kau suka be alone and for tonight kau rasa more lovable

Junior Caldera ft. Far East Movement & Natalia Kills - Lights Out

tell me all the things that's good that happened to you today tell me all the good things. dan semua warna yang buat kau rasa suka. Aku suka biru.

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ymi ymi but I can't tell you that

aku tak boleh jamin kau gembira

Jangan duduk sini

tiba-tiba sahaja . kau apahal ?

Hello, boys .

I'm a mermaid

bhahaha

anesthesia

Kau tak layak terima respect kalau kau tak anggap orang lain ada perasaan

do you know there're a lot of people who just doesn't deserve you ? they're all fucking confused with their own shits in their own minds. and end up wasting you.

RAGE at one point I think of it and of how beautiful it is and I believed in it . Believed - truly . Believe as if it could not be false. as if it will definitely going to happen. then at one point i'm not - or actually , I CAN'T anymore. at all. you don't believe in anything lagi dah pun. like. fuckery . fucked up. mencarut non-stop aku tak tahan dengan manusia macam kau aku tak faham  ramai manusia dalam dunia ni yang kau memang tak dapat nak faham even kau cuba  perangai depa memang tak boleh diterima akal SIAPA YANG TAK BOLEH DITERIMA AKAL SEKARANG fucka

you fucking selfish indecisive sad little coward

amazing how the brain's connected to the emotion  amazing how my parents act like children sesama depa. 20 tahun . aku nak a marriage macam ni :) let's do this SEMESTER BREAK

1. how about try to go to breakfast with your whole family early in the morning 2. try new food for breakfast. kali ni bukan nasi lemak . 3. to actually watch the morning news and tanya siapa dia ni siapa dia tu (ambil tahu) 4. to just know that today's gonna be awesome dengan kesederhanaan yang ada 5. having everyone to actually put the handphones down and to actually talk and borak about anything that happened currently . about hobbies. about what to do during the semester break. about new books. good books. 6. to simply embrace everything yang ada. 7. to wish that Cold One 'good morning' :) 8. wish everybody else a good morning 9. learn new words 10. laugh with your mum. bila dia mispronounced someone's name. okay lah . tu je . babai.

tapi jangan duduk dalam bilik gelap terlalu kerap jangan terlalu sayangkan masa malam by staying up selalu. jangan benci sunrise sebab ia menamatkan malam yang kau suka tu jangan stay home lama sangat. sayang you need to go out ada matahari ,the grass, trees, and idk .. air longkang ? yang bunyinya mengalir mungkin buat kau terfikirkan air laut ke pe and somehow buat kau feel alive ke somehow ? No I ain't have no career. aku cuma ada hati , dan angan-angan.

i can't get over this

"1. If you like someone, wait. 2. Give lots of compliments, even if you’re shy. Everyone else is too. 3. Change. Get a haircut, try new perfume, get new sheets. Become better than you were before. 4. Eat healthier. Learn to cook something fancy. 5. Get up earlier and watch the sun come up. 6. Wear soft clothes, take a bath, drink something warm. 7. Meet someone new, even just a friend. 8. Become closer with your friends and your family. Call your mother. Cry with your best friend. Tell everyone how much you appreciate them. 9. Keep your room clean. Buy some candles. Let the natural light in. 10. Make a list of reasons why you’ll be better off without them. Believe they are true, because they are. 11. Listen to new music. 12. Write everything you’re thinking and feeling. Write letters. Write happy letters, sad letters, and angry letters, even if you’re never going to send them. 13. It’s okay to be sad, but not forever. Sadness is not as beautiful as music makes it seem. Lack of sle...

BRAD PITT ABOUT HIS WIFE : " My wife got sick. She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and children. She lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds. She got very skinny and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman. She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the mornings and got tired very quickly during the day. Our relationship was on the verge of a break up. Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself. She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. I lost hope and thought that we’ll get divorced soon… But then I decided to act. After all I’ve got the most beautiful woman on earth. She is the idol of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her. I began to shower her with flow...

source lol bapak creepy gila bapak

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in case you didn't get what  MIDDLE SMALLER-ARM-ED  means .

a vid on the random act of kindness :)

That day antara jam 8 pagi - 10 pagi. Masa aku bangun dari tempat duduk dan jalan dibelakang syifaa' dan tiba-tiba depa stop jalan dan aku happened to stopped depan meja kau. Terpandang kau. Kau terpandang aku. moment of silence jap. ada la dalam 3 saat. aku rasa expression muka kita sama masa tu. I looked away. avoiding others to realise - us ; the two people who would never talk to each other on regular basis - staring at each other's face while standing for 3 seconds with that pool of unspoken unknown deep shits in our eyes -.-

haha siapa gelabah macam ni haha aku xboleh la ..

DAUGHTER-LOVE

mana ada rm100 aku kena tipu. thanks

RM100 SIAL. siapa je yang tak berharap orang tertopupkan kau rm100 sial -.- eh tapi hari ni aku call free. haha

SIAPA TOPUPKAN AWAK T.T SIAPA T.T TAPI IF SAYA CAKAP SAYA , WILL IT BE.. JAHAT. :3 mehehe. takdalah. gurau. saya jujur .

i will catch you if you fall. fall for me.

this is sweet .  #akudengansyirajepaham

crush aku ^

born that way

curi dari wordpress syira.

can I pet foxes ? here's why

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why

Gentlewoman

haven't sleep from last night. studying. it's 6.52am wished that Cold One good morning. he might just hate me more. complicated nya bunyi . 2.15pm. mohon jangan nangis bila buat paper ni satg . so into Daughter songs. they're dope.

but so cold

Kau kata kau badass mungkin kau fikir aku that nice kind of  girl nice. you haven't seen any of me. you haven't seen any of it. I think I can handle ya. How bad you are. You've never seen any of me.  handle you.

badass

you look so handsome. handsome reward. offer. an offer. i'm offering - handsome offer. but ya look so fucking handsome. -af-

eh eh

mother, your child is trying to create art

ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA ELENA TONRA  ELENA TONRA fucking awesome music

please understand

tak boleh rasa more screwed but feelin' good about it and I can't feel prettier

no nothing happened kecuali aku rasa kecuali aku rasa aku dihampakan oleh orang yang aku angkat tinggi sgt like you are a cawan kaca he hold you high and smile and let you go no but aku rasa sgt.. things are all outta control things are pretty . mcm art . tp excruciating like. jalan kat city streets malam-malam. it's a good feeling. but at the same time you know things are not okay. and kau dying. lana del rey style no nothing happened kecuali semalam aku fikir i'm all prepared for that paper. programming. I thought it's gonna be a paper that I can do great. but turns out aku x cukup masa, atau aku tak dpt buat. benda tu really brought me down gila. like kau walking on the ground , seret kaki. so aku dah grieved for that. but I haven't texted him since 29 sept kredit xda so for a few days aku tak text dia. and i'm looking forward to see him kat dewan . yes. before the paper started, I saw him coming in dengan satu kapal kwn-kwn dia tu. t...

nangis lah.

"Is it by mistake or design?"