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What we need is not more distrust and division. What we need now is acceptance

I had a long dream of you 2:04 3:38 2:47 21:08:92 after a long time you weren't even in my mind .

Remember me ? Hey . You. It's been awhile since our last meeting. Or our last spoken to each other. I can't really remember. but I've never actually forget them. It's been awhile since I've last saw your face. I can hardly imagine your face now. It doesn't come as clear  as it does years ago, after you're gone. Hey you. I've been making myself forgetting you for quite sometime. and .. I've forgotten you. or maybe forgive you. terima apa yang jadi. I've understand that you were just.. growing up ? I've forgotten you. I think I did.. I've lived without you . Didn't cry anymore about losing you. Until. there's a person here, at this place I'm studying , to actually remind me a lot about you. He has eyes like you and a smile of yours.. the end.

*minum air masak* *sees a curled dead ant at the bottom of the mug* *thinking like "I needed something to make me forget things.."* *minum*

Now sitting at my desk omw to study .. 5pm and the sky's not so bright. as if it's going to rain.. and i'm home alone. Peaceful. Listening to Wait for you - Elliot yamin one of my good times :)

Masa tu , tengah turun tangga. aku rasa tak berapa daya nak terus berjalan. All of the hearts, all of them, did not wanted for this to happen. For me to go. Thank Allah . Selama aku hidup aku banyak lalai . Tapi aku tahu Allah sentiasa menjaga . Dia jaga aku dengan rapi . Cuma aku yang tak tahu bila aku akan mati. Masa tu semua dah tak ada guna. Dari semalam masa aku tulis entry sebelum-sebelum ni, aku memang dah sedih macam apa, sebab akan balik penang siang tu nanti.. Aku tak tidur , aku drained, tak ada nafsu langsung untuk jejak luar rumah apalagi untuk travel ke Penang, all I wanted was to be with my people . Families, for this case. Masa keluar rumah, turun tangga, aku harap aku jatuh. Lepas tu, aku sikit lagi nak nangis . Tapi aku tak pernah.. macam tu. so .. no. Apa bapak akan kata. and macammana mak aku nak handle that. apa diorang akan rasa.. Aku keras-keraskan hati , sejuk-sejukkan hati supaya aku boleh buat muka tak sedih. Semua benda seems so cold .. Sunshi...

I am very complex. like a tangled thread.

But that's just me :)

"All along it was a fever A cold sweat high-headed believer I threw my hands in the air and said, "Show me something," He said, "If you dare come a little closer." Round and around and around and around we go Oh now tell me now tell me now tell me now you know Not really sure how to feel about it. Something in the way you move Makes me feel like I can't live without you. it takes me all the way. I want you to stay It's not much of a life you're living It's not just something you take – it's given Oh the reason I hold on Oh cause I need this hole gone Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving Cause when you never see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving" Rihanna-Stay

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