#Whenyousitnearme
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sleepover
Sleepover nya dah lama lepas, tapi aku rasa kena gak tulis kat sini sebab It's a wonderful memory. it came in, dalam tengah-tengah aku dalam mode 'pengasingan diri' tu. It's just a simple sleepover. Kan my friend? Tidoq rumah Syira. Aku takda apa-apa expected things to do, no expectation. I'm just again, trying out the theory of ''not having any expectation and you'll get the happiest things happen to you'' . this is nothing. but it'll bring enormous maksud pada kau la kawan :) as much as it did to me. Kau always be there. Kau tak tau ke kau cantik ? Aku macam, asyik cakap kau have nice hair and all, but if only aku boleh buat kau duduk belakang tabir mata aku, and see you as a human , just macam tu, and finds that you incredibly amazes me, macam mana ? Kau hebat la kawan. Kau shake aku yang nampak kukuh padahal orang gelar kau fragile. You are. but I'll always be there jadi kawan kuatkan kau . Aku memang looki...
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You've tried. That's the important part. Even if you lose , for me you're still the strongest , the fastest, everything. Don't be sad. it's heartbreaking to see. it breaks my heart. I wish I can bring the sadness away. I really wish I can lighten that feeling you're in now :( I wish you know this too. crush.
2:26am
Aku nak tutup lampu . Blogging dan tumblring in the dark while listening to this one new song I got from syira shihori called Teru No Uta / Aoi Teshima , mungkin sangat mengasyikkan. Aku dah terlalu lama melayang-layang tak tahu nak pergi mana. Aku mungkin cuma , cari diri aku yang tak jumpa-jumpa. tu je. Tapi apa lah lagi yang kau perlukan , kalau kau ada yang kau sayang di sebelah kau. Mungkin itulah apa yang buat orang yang memiliki jiwa yang bebas itu , memiliki jiwa yang bebas. Aku juga mungkin terlalu sukakan satu orang yang tak ada jawapan untuk satu pun soalan aku , kalau aku ada peluang untuk bertanya. Aku nak tutup lampu - blogging in the dark tapi semalam aku teringatkan satu mimpi aku yang tak berapa nak bagus . Semalam , aku end up tidur buka lampu. hey . aku jarang cerita macam ni. Aku teringat juga yang lepas aku bangun daripada mimpi tu . Aku searched for you. I mean. Texted you. No big deal. dia cuma satu perasaan yang .. pelik. It's funny . ver...
Turning Point
I feel like deleting the all 500+ items. I feel like becoming a new me-with fucking new beliefs. I am ! I really am. OMG tak sabaq nya. nak buang semua. Tukar. bye
what i think alwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkksssssssssssssssssssppppppppppppppaoepdjeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqdxnmcmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqdxnmmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbeeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqdxnmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbeeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqxnmcmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbeeeeeeeeebcbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbashjdgaskhjdgbwkeqmnzbc,sajdhweuiyrqowuihdsaljkcbmzcbnmzbnxvcdalklkjhdspuiyqwehjgdfsabc,mcbdjksaldjieuwoeiuoiuoiuzcmnzm,cnam,cnakdadaaeqwe98uaoiudaoiasuoqu09348230174189yr89udihduiahdoquuwswaijs apa aku tulis jom tidur :)
malu
no aku memang tak sama macam kau tak sampai pun level sesiapa. aku ada kat level sendiri ada kat tempat sendiri bahasa aku tak ramai faham orang yang aku suka - stiffer dari batu and kita semua ada disease dalam kepala otak music memang bawak kita pergi. tapi sat ja. and aku sick of .. some people. depa pun sama.
FUCKING DISTORTION
RAGE at one point I think of it and of how beautiful it is and I believed in it . Believed - truly . Believe as if it could not be false. as if it will definitely going to happen. then at one point i'm not - or actually , I CAN'T anymore. at all. you don't believe in anything lagi dah pun. like. fuckery . fucked up. mencarut non-stop aku tak tahan dengan manusia macam kau aku tak faham ramai manusia dalam dunia ni yang kau memang tak dapat nak faham even kau cuba perangai depa memang tak boleh diterima akal SIAPA YANG TAK BOLEH DITERIMA AKAL SEKARANG fucka
treatment
1. how about try to go to breakfast with your whole family early in the morning 2. try new food for breakfast. kali ni bukan nasi lemak . 3. to actually watch the morning news and tanya siapa dia ni siapa dia tu (ambil tahu) 4. to just know that today's gonna be awesome dengan kesederhanaan yang ada 5. having everyone to actually put the handphones down and to actually talk and borak about anything that happened currently . about hobbies. about what to do during the semester break. about new books. good books. 6. to simply embrace everything yang ada. 7. to wish that Cold One 'good morning' :) 8. wish everybody else a good morning 9. learn new words 10. laugh with your mum. bila dia mispronounced someone's name. okay lah . tu je . babai.
tapi jangan duduk dalam bilik gelap terlalu kerap jangan terlalu sayangkan masa malam by staying up selalu. jangan benci sunrise sebab ia menamatkan malam yang kau suka tu jangan stay home lama sangat. sayang you need to go out ada matahari ,the grass, trees, and idk .. air longkang ? yang bunyinya mengalir mungkin buat kau terfikirkan air laut ke pe and somehow buat kau feel alive ke somehow ? No I ain't have no career. aku cuma ada hati , dan angan-angan.
"1. If you like someone, wait. 2. Give lots of compliments, even if you’re shy. Everyone else is too. 3. Change. Get a haircut, try new perfume, get new sheets. Become better than you were before. 4. Eat healthier. Learn to cook something fancy. 5. Get up earlier and watch the sun come up. 6. Wear soft clothes, take a bath, drink something warm. 7. Meet someone new, even just a friend. 8. Become closer with your friends and your family. Call your mother. Cry with your best friend. Tell everyone how much you appreciate them. 9. Keep your room clean. Buy some candles. Let the natural light in. 10. Make a list of reasons why you’ll be better off without them. Believe they are true, because they are. 11. Listen to new music. 12. Write everything you’re thinking and feeling. Write letters. Write happy letters, sad letters, and angry letters, even if you’re never going to send them. 13. It’s okay to be sad, but not forever. Sadness is not as beautiful as music makes it seem. Lack of sle...
cantik
BRAD PITT ABOUT HIS WIFE : " My wife got sick. She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and children. She lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds. She got very skinny and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman. She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the mornings and got tired very quickly during the day. Our relationship was on the verge of a break up. Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself. She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. I lost hope and thought that we’ll get divorced soon… But then I decided to act. After all I’ve got the most beautiful woman on earth. She is the idol of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her. I began to shower her with flow...
CSC
That day antara jam 8 pagi - 10 pagi. Masa aku bangun dari tempat duduk dan jalan dibelakang syifaa' dan tiba-tiba depa stop jalan dan aku happened to stopped depan meja kau. Terpandang kau. Kau terpandang aku. moment of silence jap. ada la dalam 3 saat. aku rasa expression muka kita sama masa tu. I looked away. avoiding others to realise - us ; the two people who would never talk to each other on regular basis - staring at each other's face while standing for 3 seconds with that pool of unspoken unknown deep shits in our eyes -.-
